PLAYING BY THE BOOK by S. Chris Shirley
Release Date: June 11, 2014
Hardcover, 302 pages
Publisher: Magnus
Genre: YA / LGBT / Contemporary
When seventeen-year old high school newspaper editor Jake Powell, fresh from Alabama, lands in New York City to attend Columbia University's prestigious summer journalism program, it's a dream come true. But his father, a fundamentalist Christian preacher, smells trouble. And his father is rarely wrong.
Jake navigates new and unfamiliar ways "up North." Starting with his feelings for a handsome Jewish classmate named Sam. What Jake could keep hidden back home is now pushed to the surface in the Big Apple.
Standing by his side are a gorgeous brunette with a Park Avenue attitude and the designer bags to match, a high school friend who has watched Jake grow up and isn't sure she's ready to let him go, and an outrageously flamboyant aunt whose determined to help Jake finds the courage to accept love and avoid the pain that she has experienced.
Provocative and moving, Playing by The Book is a feel-good novel about the pain and joy we encounter in the search for our own truth.
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Chapter One
KABAM!
I popped up in my seat, not knowing if we’d landed or
gotten shot down.
“I’d like to be the first to welcome you to New York,”
the pilot announced.
Some welcome. Sounded more like a warning shot.
I quickly stuffed my New York travel guides in my
backpack and capped my highlighter, not believing that I was spending half a
summer at the most prestigious high school journalism program in the world. The
Columbia University Summer in Journalism program is limited to high school
newspaper editors and has an acceptance rate that probably rivals their
undergraduate program. As far as I could tell, no kid from Alabama—let alone
Tarsus, Alabama (population 7,022)—had ever gone. I still couldn’t believe I
got in.
Getting accepted was tough, but the biggest hurdle was
winning over The Preacher. I mean, my dad. I first called him “Preacher” when I
was five since Momma and everyone else did. At the time, I half expected him to
send me to bed early or take away my television privileges, but he smiled real
big and halfway nodded, so the name stuck. I tried calling Momma “Anna” around
the same time, but that didn’t go over so well.
Anyway, the very day I got my Columbia acceptance
letter, Momma and I role-played my conversation with The Preacher so I could
perfect my sales pitch. The two major hurdles we had to clear were the price of
the program and the fact that it began the very week of our church’s Vacation
Bible School. The Preacher thought I was going to be the Vacation Bible School
Director this year because, well, I sort of said that I would. But that was
before I even knew about the Columbia program.
Sitting at my place at the kitchen table, Momma
lowered her voice to play me and I played my dad, even scratching my balls for
effect since he’s one of the last great ball scratchers. We continued for a
solid hour and put together a winning platform.
To be clear, we didn’t do this all the time—just for
big events, like in third grade when I had a shot at a free German Shepherd
puppy and when I recently requested an extension on my eleven o’clock curfew
for a school dance. I never got the puppy but I was victorious on the curfew,
if you count a one-time thirty-minute curfew extension a victory.
But over dinner that evening, The Preacher cut me off
before I even got going good. He said, “Jake, you agreed to lead Vacation Bible
School this summer, right? You can’t be at church and Columbia at the same
time.”
Momma jumped right in. “But it’s a huge opportunity
for him,” she said.
“Columbia’s—”
“There’s no more important work than the Lord’s work,”
The Preacher said, then turned to me. “And how much would this cost, anyway?”
I shuffled my feet. “Five thousand dollars.”
The Preacher glanced at me then did a double take.
“Son, we don’t have that kind of money.”
I casually leaned in just as Momma had when we
rehearsed this exact scenario earlier. “But I have a few thousand saved—”
“You are not touching your college fund,” he said with
a dismissive wave. “You’re going to need it next year.”
“But this is for classes at a college,” I said,
holding The Preacher’s gaze. “One of the best colleges in the world.”
“I said ‘no’ and that’s final. Plus, there’s another
youth service in July and you’re preaching.”
My chest tightened at the thought of preaching
again—my last sermon had been an epic failure and quite possibly the most
humiliating experience of my life. “The Columbia program ends a few days before
that, but, Dad, I really don’t want to—”
“Jake, you’ve got to get back in the saddle and preach
again.” The Preacher looked down at his plate and continued eating.
I kept at him over the ensuing days since my offer to
attend was only good for a couple of weeks, but each time the conversation got
shorter and the I-said-no-and-that’s-final got louder. Despite his resistance,
I couldn’t let it go; my love for journalism was just too deep, having begun
not long after I learned to read. In elementary school, I wrote and bound a
series of adventure stories about Papaw’s old birddog, and penned new verses
for my favorite gospel songs. But when my essay on a student field trip to the
local “Jerusalem in Miniature” made the church newsletter, I was hooked on
journalism and signed up for the Tarsus Junior High Journal the first day of
seventh grade.
Plus, this was more than just a chance to study at one
of the top journalism schools in the world, it was the chance to not be a
Preacher’s Kid—or PK for short—for a few precious weeks and for the first time
in my life. As a PK, I was held to what I called the “Jesus Standard” by
everyone in town on absolutely everything I did. Anytime I came up short, they
went running to The Preacher. I wouldn’t wish it on anybody.
A few weeks later, on the very evening that my
Columbia acceptance was to expire, I began to panic and decided to go for
broke. With no real plan in mind, I tiptoed down the hallway just before dinner
and peeked through the partially opened door of The Preacher’s study, walls
lined with bookcases jam-packed with Biblical texts. It was like he never had a
life outside the church, which was pretty accurate since Papaw had been a
preacher too, as had my Great Papaw on Mamaw’s side. Of course, they were both
Pentecostal, meaning they put a lot of emphasis on the supernatural aspects of
Christianity like speaking in tongues (the ability to speak in a language
you’ve never studied). As a One-Way Bible minister, The Preacher was more focused
on theology and less on theatrics. In fact, his knowledge of the Bible was
absolutely staggering.
As I expected, The Preacher was sitting at his big oak
desk, peering through his reading glasses at a miniature model of the proposed
church complex. He ran his finger along the thick molding just below the
roofline.
“Oh, um, is that the latest?” I asked as I stepped
into the room.
He jerked his finger away from the model and looked
up. “Sure is! Including the balcony, the sanctuary will sit eight hundred.”
“Wow! I bet that’s even bigger than First Methodist!”
He glowed with pride. “It’ll be the largest sanctuary
between Montgomery and Mobile.”
“That’s great, Preacher.” I meant it too—my poor dad
had spent years trying to get this new sanctuary off the ground and it looked
like it was finally going to happen.
I stroked the razor sharp part in my hair, thick and
black just like his. That’s about the only feature we share other than our
height: at six-foot-two inches, I’m actually an inch taller, but have the Clarke
side of the family’s blue eyes, fair skin and cleft that rides up the base of
my chin like a baby’s booty—my nickname in grade school was “Bootette” (it
wasn’t particularly clever, just annoying). People often complimented my “good
looks,” but The Preacher was the showstopper in the family with his dark skin,
lumberjack build, and rugged features. Some said he looked like a movie star.
He was sort of a fortyish Mel Gibson without all the baggage.
He took off his reading glasses and moved the model aside.
“What’s up?”
“Oh, um, Preacher, I want—I need to talk about
Columbia.”
The look on his face made it clear he had nothing left
to say on the matter.
“I’m not discussing this again, Jake.”
We just stared at each other. I’d already told him a
million times that this Columbia program was just what I needed as the new
editor of the Tarsus High School Tattler. It would teach me all the ins and
outs of running a newspaper and could even come in handy for the church’s
website and monthly newsletter. Plus, being immersed in journalism 24/7 would
help me figure out if that was indeed the path I wanted to take in my life. But
every time, he always countered with “there’s no more important work than the
Lord’s work” or “choosing God’s way and not our own is tough, but separation
from God is even worse.” Deep down, I knew that this Columbia program was a
thousand times more important than Vacation Bible School, but how could I argue
with his godly line of reasoning?
Suddenly, I realized there was another angle—one that
might just get through to him.
“Preacher, please hear me out—the day I submitted that
Columbia application, I got down on my knees and prayed God would let me get in
if He wanted me to go. So it was really, like, a sign when I was accepted. I
was putting out the fleece—like Gideon.”
One-Way Bible people often ask God for signs like
this. We call it “putting out the fleece” in reference to the Old Testament
story of Gideon, who asked God to make a piece of wool on his doorstep dry and
the ground around it wet if he should lead Israel to battle against the
Midianites. It was just one way we incorporated our faith into our daily lives,
and it wasn’t that wacky when you thought about it—wasn’t everyone going
through life looking for signs to guide them?
Momma stuck her grayish auburn head through the
doorway. She was about the same age Grandmother Clarke had been when her hair
began falling out, so Momma didn’t color or even tease her hair like most women
her age since there was too much at risk, I guess. “Private party?” she asked.
“Your son thinks God’s sending him to Columbia. I see
your sister’s fingerprints all over this. She just wants to get him up to New
York City so she can fill his head with her liberal garbage.” The Preacher
looked at me like it was time to ‘fess up.
I held my breath, hoping not to give anything away,
but my dad practically had a degree in sizing people up. Aunt Phoebe had been
the one who told me about the Columbia program, a fact Momma and I agreed The
Preacher didn’t need to know. I swallowed hard.
Momma walked in and grabbed the back of one of the two
brown leather chairs facing The Preacher’s desk. “She’s actually changed a lot
in the last few years,” she said. “Gone back to being a good Episcopalian.”
“What exactly does that mean anymore, Anna? They’re marrying
gays now, you know. What’s next—farm animals?”
“Hey,” she said, digging her fingers into the back of
the chair. “I was raised Episcopal.”
This was all pretty weird—my parents never got testy
with each other, but I was the one area where my father’s spiritual realm and
my mother’s domestic realm overlapped. I sensed The Preacher didn’t care for
her gourmet dishes like the Swedish meatballs or seven-layer salad, just like I
suspected Momma didn’t agree with everything The Preacher said from the pulpit.
Each had their sovereign territory, which the other never challenged, or if so,
not in front of me.
By now, my dad looked more hurt than angry. This was
about more than Vacation Bible School, and we all knew it. To be fair, he had
mostly encouraged my journalistic pursuits up until that point, saying that the
writing and people skills I developed would come in handy no matter what path I
took. Of course, it wasn’t lost on me that writing and people skills are two of
the most basic requirements for a preacher.
“I thought you wanted to be a preacher like me and
Papaw,” he said. “The church is in your blood, son. I mean, why else would you
bother learning Ancient Greek?”
All One-Way Bible ministers study Ancient Greek, the
language of the New Testament, at seminary. A few years back, I became obsessed
with the language and got The Preacher to tutor me using his old textbooks.
Momma was thrilled knowing that it would help me on the SAT since loads of
English words have Ancient Greek roots. To be perfectly honest, I studied
Ancient Greek so I could personally interpret the more troubling New Testament
passages like the ones on sexual immorality, not because I wanted to go into
the ministry. But to hear my dad talk, it would be a complete disaster if our
family’s long line of preachers ended on his watch. If I’d been born a girl,
I’m sure my father would’ve insisted on trying again and again until he had a
male heir who could fill the pulpit since women aren’t allowed to be preachers—or
deacons for that matter—at One-Way Bible churches.
Sure, I’d thought about becoming a preacher when I was
younger—what son doesn’t consider following in his father’s footsteps? But
being a preacher meant spending your entire life under a microscope, getting
sized up on whether you were living up to the Jesus Standard. It also meant
writing a weekly sermon, which was nothing more than an editorial. I love
journalism but was recently forced to write my first editorial, just after
being elected editor of the Tarsus High School Tattler. When I sat down to
write it, my mind just went blank. In the end, I based my editorial on one of
The Preacher’s recent sermons and he helped me put it in my voice. But the fact
was that I preferred news. News was truth, and it was time The Preacher heard
mine, we’d dodged this issue long enough.
“Preacher, I—I want to be a
journalist.”
“What? Journalism’s dead, son. The Tarsus paper went
out of business years ago and you saw that story a few months back about all
those people getting laid off at TIME Magazine. I tell you there’s no future in
journalism.”
“News isn’t going away, Preacher,” Momma said. “It’s
just all going online, isn’t that right, Jake?”
“Yes, ma’am,” I said and grabbed the back of the other
brown leather chair.
Momma and I gazed down at the Preacher in solidarity,
but he didn’t miss a beat.
“And did you read about those three teenagers who were
kidnapped in Harlem last week?” he asked. “They’ll probably never be seen nor
heard from again. You don’t want to become some statistic now, do you?”
“No, sir, but, um, Columbia’s in Morningside Heights,
not Harlem.”
The Preacher put on his glasses and turned back to the
model. “Τὸ πεπρωμένον φυγεῖν ἀδύνατον.”
Translation: “It is impossible to escape from what is destined.”
A big part of learning Ancient Greek is memorizing
sayings from Plato, Aristotle, and Homer. It’s completely dorky but my dad and
I spout them to each other for fun, but that particular quote (from Sophocles’
play Oedipus Rex) at that particular moment was like a punch to the stomach.
Since junior high, I’d busted my butt learning every aspect of journalism, from
writing leads to conducting effective interviews. This program could really jump-start
my journalistic career and my dad just wanted me to accept what he thought was
destined? Was I just supposed to follow orders?
Heat rose in my chest so fast that my face stung and
for the first time in ages, I raised my voice at The Preacher. “All my friends
have a say in what they’re doing this summer, but, once again, I can do
anything I want as long as it’s exactly what you tell me to!”
The Preacher raised a finger at me. “Watch your mouth,
young man.”
My jaw was trembling, but I wasn’t scared, I was
pissed. “Dad, it’s an important summer. Don’t you remember the summer before
your senior year?”
The Preacher looked past me, reflecting on something.
“Yes, I went to a Pentecostal Youth Camp. It was…” He sank back in his chair
and stared up at the ceiling.
Momma and I glanced at each other then back at The Preacher,
who was just looking off into space.
I took a deep breath and calmed myself. “‘It was…’” I
prompted.
The Preacher sighed, but I couldn’t tell if he was sad
or just tired. “It was probably the reason I went into the ministry,” he said.
“At least, that’s when I seriously started considering it.” He clucked his
tongue. “Let me think about it.”
“Dad, I have to notify Columbia by midnight tonight!
If I don’t go, I’ll be defying God. That really scares me.”
The Preacher looked me dead in the face, but I just
stared right back. Implying that he was keeping me from doing the Lord’s will
was a big accusation in this house, but I was determined to stand my ground for
once.
“And what about the five thousand dollar tuition?” he
asked.
I shoved my hands in my pocket. “Well, Aunt Phoebe
offered—”
“I’ll pay for it,” Momma said.
I turned to her. “What? How?”
“My Honorarium Fund, of course.”
Dad received honorariums when he preached special
weeknight revival services at One-Way Bible churches outside our town. Papaw
always gave his honorariums to Mamaw, so The Preacher did the same with Momma.
I had no idea how much a kitchen renovation cost, but she had begun looking at
appliances and countertops, so she had to be close to having enough saved up.
Giving me this money would set her back a few years at least, since The
Preacher only got about $100 per revival.
“But Momma, that’s for your new kitchen—”
“I can spend it any way I like,” she said, hands on
hips. “Henry, I want him to have this opportunity. I’m not going to stand in
his way.”
“But Jake has already committed to leading Vacation
Bible School this summer,” The Preacher said. “Everyone is depending on him.”
She scrunched up her face like she was at her wits’
end. “Henry, please!”
Momma rarely confronted The Preacher like that, and I
wondered what would happen next.
A stillness fell over the room as my dad stared down
at his desk and pinched his nose. Had we gotten through to him? He certainly
seemed to be weighing the options. Finally, he looked up at me. “I don’t like
this. I don’t like it at all. But if this is truly where you think God is
leading you, then who am I to stand in His way? You can go to New York on two—”
I was overwhelmed—Momma had just delayed her kitchen
renovation by years so I could spend six weeks in New York. Even in the face of
this incredible sacrifice, her eyes sparkled. “Momma, I’ll pay you back one day
I promise.”
She pulled me close.
“Hear me out!” The Preacher said. “You can go to New
York on two conditions. One. We’ll put out the fleece again to see if God wants
you to be a preacher or a journalist.”
Could it really be that simple? Certainly, I wanted to
do the Lord’s will above everything else. I had been taught to do that my whole
life. The Preacher’s favorite line struck me again: Choosing God’s way and not
our own is hard, but separation from God is even worse. “Okay. What sign will
we ask for?”
The Preacher thought for a moment. “Columbia must give
out awards at the end of this program.”
“Yes, sir. Several.”
“Let’s pray you win one of these awards if you’re
meant to be a journalist. Otherwise, God wants you to be a minister.”
“Okay—you’re The Preacher,” I said. I’d just have to
work like crazy to be sure I won.
“Two. You’ll pursue the path God reveals to you with
all your heart, mind, and spirit.”
“Of course.”
“That would mean quitting the school paper your senior
year if God points you toward the ministry.”
I froze. Was he serious? I had only just been elected,
and the entire staff was now depending on me. “But I made a commitment to be
editor—”
He cocked his head at me. “Just like you made a
commitment to lead Vacation Bible School.”
Momma frowned and shook her head.
Was I really willing to risk my high school
editorship—and my entire journalism career—for a six-week journalism program?
But it wasn’t just any journalism program—it was the journalism program, given
by the very school that awards the Pulitzer Prizes (the highest journalism
awards in the nation). There was no telling what I might learn and the
connections I might make. Plus I could see what it was like to not be a PK for
once and spend time with Aunt Phoebe, who had a habit of spoiling me rotten.
“Okay,” I said, not having much of a choice.
The Preacher held out his hands for Momma and me to
take. The scar on his wrist where he’d fallen on a broken Dr. Pepper bottle as
a kid always reminded me of a large translucent spider. His hand swallowed mine
whole. People say I have beautiful hands—piano playing hands—but that sounded
so fragile and, well, girl-like. I wished I had hands that could palm a
basketball or dribble one for that matter.
We bowed our heads in prayer.
“Our Heavenly Father,” The Preacher began, “we come to
you this day seeking your guidance for Jake’s life.”
That all happened weeks ago, and I’d been filled with
such anticipation ever since that I thought I would burst. Phoebe had
overnighted me several New York City guides and, within days, I had dog-eared more
pages in them than not. New York was suddenly all I could talk about—I bet
everyone in my life was sick of hearing about it except maybe Momma.
But while sitting on the tarmac, waiting for our gate
to open up, I was suddenly struck once again by the fact that I had wagered my
entire future to get here, including the editorship of The Tattler. I shook my
head, trying to erase the memory of my pact with God, but it wouldn’t go away:
everything depended on my bringing home a piece of Lucite embossed with the
Columbia Crown. Absolutely everything.
PLAYING BY THE BOOK is S. Chris Shirley's first novel, which will be published by Magnus Books on June 11, 2014.
Chris is an award-winning writer/director and President of the Board of Lambda Literary Foundation. He directed Roger Kuhn’s music video, “What’s Your Name,” which aired nationally in the US and made the annual MTV-Logo Top 10. He also wrote/directed “Plus,” an award-winning short film that played at film festivals internationally.He graduated from Auburn University where he served as photo editor of The Auburn Plainsman. He later received a graduate degree from Columbia University and studied filmmaking at New York University.
He was born and raised in Greenville, Alabama and now resides in Manhattan.
Contact him at chris@schrisshirley.com.
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Thanks for this giveaway, really hoping I have a shot at this. Sounds very inspirational. I have a family member who would probably enjoy this book, so I'll probably buy an ebook for him. Crossing my fingers and hoping for a signed copy for myself. :)
ReplyDeleteBut um, I don't seem to be accumulating entry points. Each time I tweet, I'm back at 19. :(